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All Out of Sorts
Dec. 15th, 2008 12:28 amI'm feeling... Blah. Blah. Blah. And, sadly, I have this unfortunate idea that even if my dissertation woes were resolved, I would still feel "Blah. Blah. Blah."
Physically, I need to exercise. I think many of my physical symptoms of depression (diminished appetite, alternating insomnia/inability to get out of bed, constant exhaustion) could be mitigated by working out, as well as some of the mental/psychological ones (easily distracted, difficulty concentrating, memory problems). But that "Blah. Blah. Blah" also means that I can't get my ass to do something physical.
There's no local gym nearby -- by that, I mean within walking distance. I fear that membership in a gym that I have to drive to would = money wasted since I would be very unlikely to go. I need a fitness buddy.
And that's the last thing: I feel very needy, socially I mean. I used to go to the gym near grad housing at least once a week just 'cuz it was only three blocks away, but somehow that lack of accessibility here at my mom's house means that I need a buddy to get my ass to the gym. I also feel very lonely. Working on my diss (when I can get up the concentration) is very isolating. I try to work at local cafes, but it's been more and more difficult to get myself out of the house on the days that I don't work.
I am a lazy, needy blob. Blah. Blah. Blah.
Physically, I need to exercise. I think many of my physical symptoms of depression (diminished appetite, alternating insomnia/inability to get out of bed, constant exhaustion) could be mitigated by working out, as well as some of the mental/psychological ones (easily distracted, difficulty concentrating, memory problems). But that "Blah. Blah. Blah" also means that I can't get my ass to do something physical.
There's no local gym nearby -- by that, I mean within walking distance. I fear that membership in a gym that I have to drive to would = money wasted since I would be very unlikely to go. I need a fitness buddy.
And that's the last thing: I feel very needy, socially I mean. I used to go to the gym near grad housing at least once a week just 'cuz it was only three blocks away, but somehow that lack of accessibility here at my mom's house means that I need a buddy to get my ass to the gym. I also feel very lonely. Working on my diss (when I can get up the concentration) is very isolating. I try to work at local cafes, but it's been more and more difficult to get myself out of the house on the days that I don't work.
I am a lazy, needy blob. Blah. Blah. Blah.
